Rambling About Mental Health

Reading about the Udub Transwoman who was killed and how the suspect turned themselves in. It was said the suspect had a history of “crises”. I did a search as to what “crises” means in a crime perspective which lead me to Reddit udub feed where they were talking about it. Said the suspect had a history of aggression towards women. Didn’t single out trans the spectrum was broad. It is easy for me to get angry when someone is harmed in any fashion by violence. Then I am reminded of my mother who was Schizophrenic. Off her medicine she was not even there. She was almost put involuntarily in a psyche ward when she was arrested for running after children at a day care. I have always said there was instability in my family and have been called the spoiled and problem child. Allot of things can be confronted that are many times hidden due to fear and ego. I chose to willingly go to therapy hoping to break the cycle to find stigma. Some use stigma for bullying or they bring mythology as a fix all and it is not. Some find a common enemy to mutually hate instead of confronting the issue. I had to create a barrier publicly to keep her and others safe until I was available to lay boundaries down or find help to deal with the situation legally. Now, I get really distant. I am left with PTSD and Anxiety from being the scapegoat, fixer and rescuer for years.   I like in May we talk more about mental wellness. I question if it could ever become a fad? Could it be socially engineered to be a flawed human fixing themselves to fabulous? Perfection is unreachable and dangerous considering the history of slavery and genocide. I do feel the human is capable of more than they expect of themselves. I could be wrong.