Be careful about who you listen to

Been working on my witches garden. Actually all the gardens on the homestead should be considered witches garden. Ordered some seeds and am going to try making a seedling snail with old feed bags. I guess the feed store recycles feed bags so we will recycle them there. We try to recycle and reuse as much as possible here.

Before one chooses to judge a word, it would be wise to know its history. Many words are used carelessly without thought of track record.

For example: witch was a label used by those who were lustful and turned down or coveting. Touch starved Priest Theory? Also was used to get rid of herbalists for medicine in the King James era.
Whore was used to degrade all women considered distasteful by misogynist peers before it became now as the adult industry word.

In ignorance we dirty more than necessary. Plus who is any better if we take in everything into account. I prefer distance instead of overthinking and exerting vain energy. If the word witch makes a guilty conscious stay away from me, well then Boo!

You can shed light on facts but if someone is mentally ill, which includes being unreasonable, or in a cult it is a vain waste of time. I have learned even if ones holy books point at the conscience instead of a devil, many will choose the scapegoat instead of their reflection. It is better to be distant instead of vain time.

I am not everything to everyone. I am not for everyone. Some do seem to think I owe them attention or proving something to them when I am just minding my own business. Minding your business people seem to have to flex. Seriously a waste of time.

People love gossip. Some don’t care about facts.

I’ve once faced cancer which affected my hormones and was gossiped I was cheating.

I gave birth and was straight edge while eating clean and was gossiped I was on meth.

Gossiper hid it and had no interest admitting it to me until later and they brushed it off as an oh well. They always had issues with me being unavailable. I was unavailable due to leaving abuse. For myself when others were abusive to me they said I deserved it or a God told them to. Yet these same individuals while silencing my voice expected my voice and presence for them and others while I deserved all the consequences and should have known better. People would imitate Gossip in the name of their God or say their God told them this or that about me, which is mental illness and cult mentality. The spiritual and mental abuse was difficult and I took it personally at the time because I thought they deserved all respect and I was unworthy. People don’t notice they are in a cult usually until they leave.  I know better now having went through therapy and studied allot of different topics trying to find answers in my life.

My therapist suggested I stay away from them. When they had no access they went through others. I just took notes and kept focusing on my life. Fought through depression from all the abuse journaling, setting boundaries and self care.  Now they have all moved on with their lives and I am in a different place, mentally healed while distancing from what doesn’t align with my values.

I enjoy adult entertainment, lifestyle, movies, naturism, gardening, cannabis, alcohol, spirituality, herbalism and more. I really do enjoy being non binary. I have found peace with it. I don’t intend to submit to or align with what is considered normal. If it don’t vibe or gel with me then the mix is a no for me.

Like I said, Im not for everyone. Many do feel entitled to access in my life. Get your own life and leave me alone. If there is no need, then access is unnecessary. If your God knows it all for you, then I should not be a focus for your Gods sake or yours. Focus on your own life. If you are struggling then I encourage you to seek therapy. Therapy was one of the best choices I made.