Trophy Generation

I would prefer to be hated for who I am, than loved for who I am not. I realize I don’t do well following or being in groups. Not everyone has studied what I have. Unpopular perspective but some are the result of the free trophy system and have cheated their way in life and when it no longer works for them they scapegoat.

I am not a psychologist but I have invested in good therapists to help me understand the why of areas where I was blocked. My last therapy session was with my husband and children where we asked a therapist what we were doing wrong with people when even boundaries were not being accepted. Her answer was we were doing nothing wrong. Mentally give their stuff back and leave. We left the state.

If I am hated, I no longer respond or bother the hater. Anton Levay in his book said he would prefer disagreement than a fake yes. He didn’t like hypocrites, yes people or good guy types. Just don’t be mean to him basically, he already had enough. I am paraphrasing. I respected him so much in his books for his honesty. I read all but one book.

Right now I am reading Bow Down. (All books I am reading now are listed on the reading challenge page.) It is broadening my perspective on my feminine side plus inspiring me of what intentional additions to create in my life.

I will never be a follower again. I have done that to find it not be a good thing for me. I don’t believe in repeating what has no value for the sake of collective minds. Does me no good. Instead I enjoy inspiring another to explore themselves while I enjoy mine.

If you hate me, I’m not sure why but thank you for being honest.