Just Stop

Stop wanting to be liked. Instead choose to be valued. I have been disliked since childhood. My own family disliked me so much they terminated rights to me leaving me homeless and couldn’t care less if I was alive or dead. The only thing that they cared about was themselves and I had to understand that to finally move forward into healing. My choice to interact was based on my judgment.

Some people seem entitled to my time. They are refused if there is no mutual investment, I have no interest or not a good fit. I placed a value on my time and expectation. When you get busy enough and invest in yourself, not everyone deserves access. It is difficult to find an investment without personal sweat equity unless you’re not thinking rational or a parasite.
I tried living life on life’s terms and I felt life’s terms unfair and irrational. Until I chose to live life on my terms and put in the work to create those terms with a realistic educated mind my life did not change.
During the process of my effort I did have some choose to try to destroy my effort because my strength was a threat to them. They lost power, control, access and were afraid their secrets would be revealed. I continued in the path of change. I had support centers telling me the only way to be safe was to run and hide. I chose to stand my ground and work. They would destroy my work and I would rebuild. Every time I rebuilt I improved while they self destructed. I would be charitable and they would be vicious, so I learned sometimes no is charity. For some they don’t need kindness or charity, they need denied access to get right with themselves. Sometimes access should be more expensive so others will level up and do better. Sometimes it has nothing to do with not being good enough but not the right time, there is other work to get done or this is not a good fit. Keep going.