I believe we are always creating ourselves. I personally will never align with the religious crowd. They talk allot and don’t hear themselves. To hold an expectation for approval is fruitless. My experiences in life have proven me differently. I experienced people and could never find a fit. Even with their beliefs vs actions it didn’t align with my spirit or raising. Even with my raising I had to find my own way for the most part. Many people are saying one thing while their actions are different. Many their intentions were completely about them and they were never grateful or satisfied. I would try to meet them at an equal and usually be unaligned even abused. For others they would devalue me and dehumanize me and question why my intentions and focus strayed. Others would have expectations that were very toxic. I came to learn a different path was needed

I learned I am always growing, sculpting and shaping my life. My mind changes as I create the life I was given. If my path is not my own then how am I free? Some would state the same thing as non-binary in an effort to dehumanize me then question my pronouns. I always found they/them fitting because I didn’t want these types anywhere near me. I always found it interesting the expectations of availability expected by others of me.

I see many get a classic car determined to keep it running then say to me I need to get comfortable with aging. I hear others call me a whore, which according to history is demeaning of strong minding women in any fashion, then be righteous of cheating and fornicating. I could spend allot of time on useless thoughts giving my ears and eyes to toxic behavior or focus on myself and those I choose. I think there is allot said right now and in all honesty I have been cautious of saying to much. Why interrupt my enemy if they are making a mistake. They sure aren’t my friends.

Identity will change and so will beliefs as the spirit grows and blossoms. I have found it important to nurture the process instead of shame it. We all start as a seed and yet we think we control the growth and process. I guess to some extent we do but over others?