How I cope with negative feelings

I have been through allot of negative in my life. I have contemplated suicide (almost succeeded) and taken medicine to treat extreme depression and anxiety. How I overcome allot of the negative was action. I made a list of what I wanted to change in my life. I wrote a journal dumping all my thoughts on paper then weighed it and inventoried everything. I read books, watched speakers, sought therapy, and even told some people to Fuck off. I made a decision if I was going to live instead of dying I was going to be extreme about choices that best served me. Allot of people didn’t like that because I was no longer their free toy to abuse. In my decision to take action my life changed for the better. I started creating my life content to be alone. Soon after I met my best friend and soul mate.

Some would come back to abuse me and find their own downfall with nothing due to my actions. I was just no longer available to distract them from themselves and they chose their own path. From my life changing I did find some difficult times and they were easier to learn and grow from. I was no longer stepped on so I could finally grow. The biggest choice was action on my part. From there I could work towards finding…… The journals from my difficulties will be passed down to my offspring. Kinda gives me Addams Family Vibes.