I get asked about my bisexuality and if I would desire multiple partners on my adult content comments at times. I am bisexual in a hetero relationship.
I am a complicated person to understand, I feel. Many times I get gossiped about instead of talked to and some of that is because I am asocial. I really don’t know how to relate to people and in this time of politics it is too complicated.
The normal is boring and annoying mostly at the same time lately in my opinion. I have never really been a people person. I rarely, if at all, mixed with others. It has become increasingly more difficult with my anxiety and emotional scars from past difficult people. I rely on my partner to social interact when I cannot or I am not vibing.
Before starting porn, my partner (Andy) and I talked about many sexual preferences and beliefs when we used to watch adult reality shows together. We would watch reality shows on Pornography, Polygamy, Polyamory, etc. Questioning our religious beliefs and conscious, we questioned each other on allot of different things. Our conversations together were rarely boring, we went through the good and the bad together. When partners were dividing, we pulled each other closer. In dark times, we held each other when everything was falling apart.
We have been married for 26 years. We are best friends, business partners, everything really. Many times in struggle we guarded each other and sometimes the battle was against our own. We have seen the consequences of others actions. We have questioned each other on our perspective of potential consequences, knowing we vowed and desired to be together. We have picked each other up when the other has fallen and at times couldn’t make it anymore. We have taken each others breath away in beauty, action and words. Even encouraged another breath when there was no perfect words. Life is a battle and we had no one in our court and if we did it came at a price.
There are some types of intimacy we are not interested in. We have seen life and death together in many different perspectives. It is difficult to relate to just anyone from a platonic level in these turbulent times…. add sex while being asocial/introverted. At the highest level of intimacy not always can you meet others on that same level. Pondering a broad level of consequences does time equal long term costs.
The biggest thing we did was communicate with each other. Communication has many levels not everyone desires or chooses to climb.
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